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Is it wrong to feel embarrassed at finding out how pointless it was to hold a grudge against someone for many many years? Let’s just say I’ve had a ‘Road to Damascus’ experience lately on an unrelated matter which led me to realise that this grudge has done nothing for my personal development and at best just caused occasions of anger to skew my judgement here and there. But I wasn’t carrying the grudge for no good reason. I wasn’t just being grouchy. This person has done and said bad things to me for no just cause. To be honest I think the pointlessness of their actions, the lack of reason or need is what had been affecting me rather than what they actually did/said. Maybe this new perspective I seemed to have developed will help me with other issues I have with certain individuals? We’ll soon find out I guess.

Nobody likes criticism. You can be one of those dicks who claims that criticism is good, it teaches you where you’re going wrong and how to improve etc but you’re fooling nobody. You may be finding it ‘useful’ but you don’t actually like it.  I hate criticism. Or a particular kind of criticism. I can handle the type that’s constructive, that shows me how to improve. But when people criticis me just for the sake of being a cunt then I shut down and blank them out. They fall off my personal radar. Do I think they care? No, but I don’t care what they think. I just remove them from my life. There’s a particular brand of criticism I’ve received from an ex partner. I didn’t pay attention at the time as she was spouting all kinds of arse-gravy at the time, all the while she was ignoring her own faults. But lately I’ve been dangerously close to repeating the actions she described. And it occurred to me I’d repeated that particular behaviour elsewhere during my life. At the very earliest I ...

So you’re jumping on the criticism bandwagon with everyone else now, when you were aware of what actually happened way back then and you didn’t say anything at the time? You’re so full of shit dude

There’s really no need to play “cordial” with me whilst simultaneously stabbing in the back with continuous lies and exaggerations.  We both know your back is against the wall right now. I know you’ll never admit to me that I’m right and your behaviour has been shitty. Especially not in text or social media. I’ve shown you my hand in that I’ve admitted I’ve taken screenshots for years. So you’ll be extra careful with what you reveal and I understand that.  But…none of that is needed. I’m sure you feel justified in your actions but the fact you’re fearing what will happen demonstrates you know you’ve handled this wrong, and badly.  So maybe right now you just don’t like or trust me but you’re feeling ‘forced’ in to being cordial with me. That’s fine, I don’t really care whether you mean it or not. Just as long as there’s no return to your piss-poor actions and behaviour.  So if you feel you have to balance that cordiality with continuing to blacken my name that’s your...