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I have a pretty simple rule about people I know.  If they hear a story/rumour about me and choose to believe it without even giving me the chance to give my side of the story, I simply drop them from my personal radar. I won’t waste my time with people who didn’t even give me 5 minutes of theirs.  I’m not saying they have to believe me. If after speaking with me about the rumour they still believe it’s true then I can respect that. I’d probably be a bit disappointed but at least they gave me the respect of allowing me to give the other side of the story.  But if they hear something about me and decide I’m already guilty, they can (and will) fuck right off.  Those who know what I’m talking about will get this. 

In July I bought a car from someone on eBay. Turns out he was a trader but that was cool, he had a few cars for sale on there and had good feedback. I saw a car I liked and made him an offer, he accepted. I went up to Wolverhampton to see the guy, he met me at the railway station and he took me out in the car.  I never knew his real name but he called himself “Ken” and his number is 07721 431543.  The first warning I should have picked up on was when I wanted to try out the air conditioning. I pressed the button, air came out but it wasn’t cold. More like normal lukewarm temperature. I mentioned to Ken that it wasn’t working but he put his hand over the vent and said “Yes! It’s working fine!” That was a bare faced lie. It wasn’t usual air con temperature but I figured it just needed re-gassing and I didn’t mind getting that sorted. But the cheek of him thinking he could get me to believe it WAS working was pretty insulting.  Anyway as long as it had cruise cont...

And so as one longtime issue has finally been buried (for me at least) another raises it’s pointless ugly head.  I’m not proud of all the decisions I’ve ever made but in many of them the actions I took were based on the circumstances I was put in. For example, if a woman believes that entering a relationship with a man who already has children means she will never be number 1 in his life (that title obviously going on his kids), then goes on to complain when he puts his children before her, it becomes difficult to take her complaints seriously.  She apparently knew things wouldn’t be smooth. Then goes on to complain about it. A bit like reading today’s weather forecast that it will rain, then having a tantrum when it starts to rain. 

I’ve had a lot of anger/frustration built up about certain issues from my past. A lot of people have said the bad feeling was justified but they only hear my side of the story. I have nothing to hide but obviously they won’t know the full details as that would mean other involved parties would be in on the conversation and that’s impractical.  Anyway I’ve asked myself lately should I hold on to the ill-feeling. And the answer is no, not really. I have bigger fish to fry and I’ve long since moved on from the issues that started everything.  This goes out to just one person. I’ve let everything go. Don’t believe me? I don’t blame you. Don’t even care? I don’t blame you again. I’m not saying any of this for a reaction - and why would there be a reaction.  I’m just saying it because…this is my blog.