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Well it’s been a lot longer than I’d planned but I may as well keep this updated.  Much has changed since I last posted. In fact a lot has changed since I even began this blog. The kinds of things that would make anyone question why I even have a blog.  My partner (or as I like to call her, my Wife for Life) has changed me in ways others have spectacularly failed to do. And that’s not meant to be a dig at them. Whoever they’ve moved on to I hope they’re all happy, I genuinely do. They are my exes for a reason (and vice versa naturally) but now I have finally found “her”. The irony being she was right under my nose all this time.  Anyway of all the ways she’s improved me, and ther are many, the one which stands out significantly is my privacy. I’ve had blogs in the past where I’ve implied things, been cryptic about other stuff and beat around the bush about things that really did not need to be revealed. This has now stopped. I don’t feel any need or desire to explain myse...

Well yeah I said I’d update this more but I didn’t really go in to specifics… So changes are on their way. Big changes, some I said I’d never make. Some I haven’t encountered for 12 years and are comparatively frivolous. Some are history repeating itself, ironically exactly a decade ago.  “The keys to the future are held by the past”. There is some sort of logic when it comes to time, sentiment and history. The universe is clearly speaking to me given where I now live and with this being exactly 30 years from when I was in very similar circumstances. My first truly independent Christmas may be the last with my family the way it is, and it all ties in with 1984.  20 years ago this year I was at my peak at the radio station, completely unaware I was on the cusp of numerous life-changing incidents, this will play in to the next 5/6 months.  And 10 years ago I made a decision which was very much the wrong one however I was blessed to quickly get the opportunity to reverse it....

 Anyone who got close to me in the last 2 years or so will know that the title of this entry has played a big part in who I am today and who I’m becoming.  To be honest it’s only 2 maybe 3 people who will know about it. It comes from a YouTube clip starring some very famous actors.  I used to pay attention to Tom Hanks’ line (I still do) but it’s clear I should have focussed just as much (maybe even in certain circumstances) to what Robert De Nero says. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-sciUJKjUfM

 So that plan has been put back a few weeks at least. Fuck. 

 So finally I’m hitting the home straights. Ironic use of wording.  I’ve waiting for this situation to be possible for 16 or so years. I can’t complain too much, a lot of the wait was my own doing but a chance phone call just after Christmas last year allowed me to put a plan in place which would take some time but would finally see me where I need to be.  Cryptic, me? Of course. I’m not going to show my hand just yet. A few small hurdles need to be cleared first but they are indeed small and the next stage of my evolution will begin.  When the time is right (and most probably were only talking a month or so) I’ll reveal it but it’s essential I keep it under wraps until then.  It’s probably going to sound boring to you but to me and mine, it’s EVERYTHING. 

 I know you’ll be reading this to see if I comment on you. I will but you’re such a non-entity I won’t even bother using your online name. Such arrogance and ignorance when someone wants to better themselves by asking questions (especially when they learn better through dialogue) then blocking them. Give up the victim mentality. You may enjoy life more that way.