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 Anyone who got close to me in the last 2 years or so will know that the title of this entry has played a big part in who I am today and who I’m becoming.  To be honest it’s only 2 maybe 3 people who will know about it. It comes from a YouTube clip starring some very famous actors.  I used to pay attention to Tom Hanks’ line (I still do) but it’s clear I should have focussed just as much (maybe even in certain circumstances) to what Robert De Nero says. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-sciUJKjUfM

 So that plan has been put back a few weeks at least. Fuck. 

 So finally I’m hitting the home straights. Ironic use of wording.  I’ve waiting for this situation to be possible for 16 or so years. I can’t complain too much, a lot of the wait was my own doing but a chance phone call just after Christmas last year allowed me to put a plan in place which would take some time but would finally see me where I need to be.  Cryptic, me? Of course. I’m not going to show my hand just yet. A few small hurdles need to be cleared first but they are indeed small and the next stage of my evolution will begin.  When the time is right (and most probably were only talking a month or so) I’ll reveal it but it’s essential I keep it under wraps until then.  It’s probably going to sound boring to you but to me and mine, it’s EVERYTHING. 

 I know you’ll be reading this to see if I comment on you. I will but you’re such a non-entity I won’t even bother using your online name. Such arrogance and ignorance when someone wants to better themselves by asking questions (especially when they learn better through dialogue) then blocking them. Give up the victim mentality. You may enjoy life more that way. 

 Only a few people know this but there’s only one chick flick I’ll willingly watch and even then it has to be watched during one particular week of the year. I refuse to watch it any other time.  Love, Actually.  And it has to be watched towards the end of the third week of November. Why? Because there’s when it begins in the film. 5 weeks before Christmas. I always wanted to find a woman who would happily watch it with me as it does get me a bit emotional especially the final scenes of everyone’s stories coming together at the airport.  One exe of mine watched it one year with me but refused to watch it the following year because “Why? We’ve already seen it once”). That was the moment I knew we’d have no future. Even if it means nothing to her, it meant to something to ME. And I’d have done it in return in a similar scenario for her.  Anyway. Each time I watch it I hate Alan Rickman’s character and you know why.  But this year (funnily enough the 20th anni...